'go to hell'
'don't be cute, Benjamin'
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i try not to bother anyone
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'i don't know what i am, dad, and i don't particularly care.'
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'dad, i talked to a lot of people. non of them were particularly interesting.'
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'dad, for twenty-one years i have been shuffling back and forth between classrooms and libraries. now you tell me what the hell it's got me.'
'a damn fine education.'
'are you kidding me?'
'no.'
'you call me educated?'
'i do.'
'well i don't. because if that's what it means to be educated then the hell with it.'
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because i'm finished with schools, dad. i never want to see another school again. i never want to see another educated person again in my life.
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no. i'm just - i'm just - i'm just a little worried about my future. i'm a little upset about my future.
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because i'm confused about things. i can't tell what i'm imagining. i can't tell what's real. i can't-